I have realized that being in Army (or any other job) for a while now has made my vision for life very narrow. So engrossed/obsessed with themselves and their organization, are the Army officers that they ignore how much more the life has to offer. I had failed to understand that happiness or a happy ending is not becoming COAS, having countless riches, being famous or other materialistic things, rather it is being content with one self and be happy with what one has. Thus i feel, its just the right time that I got my posting and am now expanding my horizon and hence changing the way I think.
One of the biggest question one asks of himself is "What do I want out of my life ?". I might be doing a whole lot of things viz I did schooling, graduated, may be post graduated and am working now, but how do I want it all to end ? I seem to have found the answer to this question. May be the way I answer this question may change as I move forward, but the content shall always remain the same.
The reverie I witnessed today, that forced me to write this blog, tells me that when I am at the fag end of my life, I should be content with whatever I have and did. I want myself to be sitting on an easy chair besides a huge window, peeping through it, amazed as to why every day when I see through the same window, the world looks totally different. I see myself staring at the plants, trees, flowers, birds and remembering this day when it all began.
I see myself having a small piece of land in the hills of Kumaon, having pleasant climate and clouds all around me. There is this chill in the air and absolute silence. One can only hear the gushes wind swept pines in short intervals. I am having tea am charting out my plan for the day.
It is a beautiful cottage, it has all the things I will ever need. It has a small reading room full of books, a fully equipped kitchen, a drawing room where one wall if full of my photographic master pieces and the other having the photos of family and friends,a bed room, guest rooms, a small studio where I develop my own prints, a computer room cum study and a balcony covered with transparent roof. The entire cottage is wood paneled. I have all the modern amenities of life well catered for. Ohh !! I forgot there is a small but rich bar as well.
When I walk out to my balcony, I can see the entire area, which has plethora of flora and fauna. It has greenhouse sheds where the plants can survive. At the other end of the farm there is a equally majestic building which serves as the office and residential for the staff and the employees. The entire farm is spic and span. The plants I have are of a varied variety. There are flowers, medicinal plants, ornamental plants, cactus, rare plants and local selling plants. I then play some really slow and meaningful music and again sit back and start enjoying nature. All of a sudden mist comes up and surrounds the farm in a heavenly adobe. This prompts me to go out with my camera to a nearby hill top from where the view would be even better.
My better half who has been a spectator till now gets really annoyed with the idea of going out, again. But, being my persuasive best I persuade her to cook some breakfast real fast. Next few mins we are off, the ride till the hill top is sooo exhilarating. I have good music playing to set myself up for the day. We chit chat enroute and enjoy every minute of the drive. Once at our destination, I take out my camera and click some pictures. Then its time to put on my tent, I pitch it (by now I am an expert tent pitcher). Now it has started drizzling a bit and we get inside the tent and have our sandwiches and juice. Starting to get cold now, but each moment passing by is giving a feel of a life time. We sit there in the middle of no where, no one around us and intriguing beauty all around us.
We then decide to go back and rest. On our way back we are talking about how lucky we are to lead a life of this kind. And then I start thinking about the day when all this began, that day is today.
I must admit that whatever I saw felt soo nice and pleasing to me that I wanna take every step to reach that kind of end. What I realize is that if I don't start now and here I might never be there. What ever I do today onwards shall be a step towards whatever I have jotted down.
3 comments:
someone said "its not important where you come from the whole deal is "where you go" ... your dream is not only yours alone, but a sentiment million have, but somehow have lost it under the many folds of the material world. its astounding how man can come to this world thinking of so many things to accomplish, but forget that the one factor that defines all parameters is always unknown.... time .. no one knows how long one has to do all one desired. so its important to where u want to go. the hills of kumaon or the grasslands of kalingpong, the beauty is the thought it ... so live on for this one dream for its worth a thousand days of hardship
Really interesting Fuloria! This touches you where it matters the most...Yes! right there!!
Well written and more than that, well-envisioned...while I am no authority to comment on the 'well' part of it, I say it for you have written it such that one can 'understand' the thought behind it. :)
Way to go! and may all your dreams come true.
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